I miss you. I hate the way things are between us right now, but I’m glad you’re in my life. I’m glad that you help me see the beauty of life, you truly want to see me be happy again and it feels great knowing that. I wish things didn’t happen the way they did, I wish that I knew you wanted to do the long distance thing four years ago, I wish I knew that we could’ve made it work. I wish I didn’t think you said no when in reality you said yes. I wish I didn’t just give up so easily with you. But I’m so blessed that I have you, that you’re still in my life. With everything that we’ve both gone through, we have still managed to stay in touch, to keep connected and for that I’m truly blessed and grateful for. I never thought that someone I met four years ago on a vacation to Hawaii would mean so much to me or would have such a big impact on my life. It seems so silly because it’s been so long since I’ve seen you, but when we talk I still get butterflies, there’s just something about you. Maybe the timing will never be right for us, but I want to still stay hopeful and think that maybe one day things will fall into place for us maybe we’ll be able to make things work, maybe just maybe we can be a couple. I don’t know what the future holds, but I hope that maybe the timing will be right for us one day. I mean we’ve made it this far, this long and we’re still talking. I truly think that says something. You’re one of my best friends and you will always have a special place in my heart no matter what ever happens between us. You give me a new outlook on life every time we talk, and it feels so great. I like you a lot and I think you know that and I know you like me too but you’re afraid to do the distance. I am too. But sometimes I wish we would just take a leap of faith. Who knows what the future will hold.